The Specter Show 049: The Day the World Went Away

Website redesign? I talk about it. BuJoRPG? I talk about it. BuJourneyRPG? I talk mostly about this, with a little bit of updates here and there of other smaller topics.

Host: DJ Allen
Intro Music: The Idea of You by Nine Inch Nails (from Not the Actual Events)
Outtro Music: The Perfect Drug by Nine Inch Nails
Intro Lead in: Theo Rossi

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The Greatest Show 146: We Have 50 Baboons To Go

Jason Brick, the man behind the There And Back Again anthology, joins the regular crew of DJ, Tricia, and Metal Jesus for the romp through fun times .

Journal of the Emerald Specter 82: Chess Basho UPDATE!

Are you interested in a chess tournament that happens six times a year with a one move per day time control? Are you interested in competing against no less than 11 other players to fight for titles in a sumo-style tournament brawl?

Well, the Emerald Specter Chess Club is for you, then.

And to make life better, here is an update on what’s happened so far in the world of the ESCC.

The Emerald Specter 2018 Winter Basho, also known as the 2018 January Basho, concluded in February and saw the first set of “Sapphire Adepts” added to the list. This led to mass invitations out to the original players with a shot at new players getting involved for the Emerald Specter 2018 March Basho. The tournament hadn’t been “invitation only,” and the original players never really got a shot to return for the second tournament as a whole new batch of players flew in to snatch up the spots.

That leads us to where we are now, with players interested in continuing to build and play while others still wanting in (yes, I’ve gotten requests for inclusion in the future).

First things first, though, let me state that ESCC competitors should sign up to the ESCC group on Chess.com in order to be considered for the tournaments that are invitation only. After 2018, the ONLY way you can continue to be included in the top division will be by being a member of the ESCC group.

That being said, an invitation was sent out to every player who participated in either the Winter or March Basho this year to be allowed in to the invitational circuit. If there isn’t a full roster of 12 players (minimum) who sign up, invitations will be granted to interested parties who make contact with me.

The March Basho finished as such:

ArturFaust – 21
homozzapien – 20.5
anujvaniya78692 – 15.5
biraandrada – 14
King_of_Not – 13
ardirahendro – 13
Aurel1954 – 12.5
Fredl1963 – 9
EmeraldSpecter – 7
PietroSalem – 4
sarotaromchuen – 0
vedantachess07 – withdrew

With this we’d have SIX Sapphire Adepts, just like last time… though we’d only have added one if the original players were still involved (assuming the standings remaining the same in both cases).

Thus, we will begin with a soft reboot of the ladder (division) for the top, depending upon who joins the club and who does not. I will also be starting an “Open Basho” each time to allow for the experimentation of the newer players and for a promotion/relegation system to begin being looked at, as that is also part of the sumo system.

The remaining Bashos in 2018 will continue with the naming structure as the others have (May, July, September, and November) with one caveat: the numbering for future installments will be added. That means, since we’ve already had two Bashos, the Emerald Specter 2018 May Basho will be listed as Emerald Specter Chess Basho 3: May 2018 will be the title. After 2018 ends, the naming will more than likely just be everything before the colon.

I will personally be competing in at least two more Bashos this year, and if my luck with the rest of you remains steady, I’ll probably withdraw just to administer this effort. I’ve enjoyed playing but work took a toll on me by causing me to miss a number of game moves in the allotted time, so I guess I would have done a little better (optimistically speaking) than I actually did.

Anticipating that about half of each group will want to continue participating in the future, I can see a solid 12 player division being constant before we reach November, leading to a need for expansion if the interest continues to grow.

One move per day is the quickest time control I can create without forcing people to be online at the same time to play real time. If we get to a point where real time is something people want to do, I’d consider expanding this into a 12 annual tournament “live tournament” cycle in the same manner as the one move per day, though the two would be separate from each other.

Hopefully things keep looking up.

Journal of the Emerald Specter 81: Audio from Written Word

Plans, plans, and more plans. Things start up, things fall through. Things don’t get started and life tends to get in the way.

“If something is important to you, you make time.” ~ Captain Montgomery Scott to Captain James Kirk in Generations.

I guess I have to start making time for the things that are important.

I’ve been talking about writing and completely producing a 22-page comic book before the end of the year. If I don’t actually start doing that I won’t ever get it done. By this time, I should have had a full script written and working on the layout for the book.

Have I done that? Nope. I have a script started but it hasn’t progressed.

There are tons of other writing projects I want to be knee deep in right now, too, but that falls into the “time isn’t happening” category. that’s also going to be grinding to a halt.

I produced a story for a writing class when I went to college back in 2005. The story was just the beginning of a much bigger venture and I’ve often thought about where that story goes. There are details within that story that I’ve long forgotten about and if I dig the story up to freshen the whole thing up. With a rewrite and some additives with the new details, I think it’s ready to be brought out to the world.

I am going to accomplish these things because I have a lot of stories I want to tell and I’m going to tell them.

I’ve been lax with getting out the Specter Show lately. Not that I’ve really meant to not record or to release shows, with the last episode being on the pathetic end of the scale, I’ve just allowed life to push me around.

Yep, there it is again… life pushing me around.

I’m going to start doing some experimental things with the Specter Show. There is another podcasting idea I’ve had that I wanted to try out and while I will definitely be producing at least one full episode of that idea WITHIN the confines of the Specter Show and if I enjoy it but don’t want to fully make a new feed that is also not going to be getting a ton of attention, I’ll produce a few more.

There is also a “research project” that I’ve been meaning to write up and produce into a podcast. Once again, I don’t want to produce a podcast that gets left to flap in the wind on it’s own feed while I struggle to keep up with what I’m already doing. What’s the idea? It’s going to be me producing long form content about a series of subjects all related to self improvement. That’s as far as I’ll go with the reveal so far and just like above, I’ll probably release the stuff WITHIN the confines of the Specter Show once, maybe twice.

Why within? Well, the Specter Show intro and outro would still be in the episode, and with these two ideas I would basically have a “this isn’t a normal episode” warning. If the content is popular or interesting enough, I’ll break it out into it’s own feed and release the episode sans Specter Show bookends.

I am stating right now that I am going to be getting back on the Specter Show wagon and producing content again, and really working to make content that doesn’t suck.

Moving along to the Greatest Show, I don’t see the group sticking to a “season” format… mainly because only one person outside of everyone in my house shows up regularly. This opens up the Greatest Show format changing into two different format options: a roleplaying session that only Metal and I are part of or me running an interview style show at irregular times with the guests I’ve been unable to work on getting on the show due to (you guessed it) life.

Both of those things are going to be a thing and that is where I’m trying to take the show. Unless the old crew comes back together, or Bob is able to make a regular appearance with me to have a reunion to the “old school Greatest Show.”

I said all that in the writing section to get to the meat of this column. The title, so far, hasn’t made a ton of sense in this column and that is about to change.

Let’s say I’m writing a serial fiction series about a school of wizards… and let’s say that the series gets a little attention from readers who would like more. Let’s also say that the series gets some feedback about people who like the premise but don’t have the time to read all that to get the information.

Well, here is where we come in with the title: Audio from Written Word.

I have software that will combine mp3 files into a large m4b file. If you don’t know what an m4b file is, that’s what an audiobook file is (at least through Apple). I am saying that I’d record the serial fiction into an audiobook format.

There are several things that I need to state about this before I go on. First, my time is not free and I’d be asking for a fee. If you consume even a fraction of the audio that I consume (because constant movement at work allows me to hear things but not really to sit and read things), then you’ll appreciate that paying someone to listen to a reading of fiction isn’t a terrible thing. Second, the audiobook files would be complete “seasons,” like the entirety of the series (season 1, season 2, etc) as one single file… this keeps me from seeing to basically having to produce a podcast release schedule to keep up and I can provide a bigger “hoopla” if I just do the bigger release. Third, I could also start writing the serial fiction as just written word and produce an “audiobook” to compile the season… or after a certain number of seasons I can simply produce and release the audiobook “seasons” after a free launch.

The idea is that if I want to start doing things I want to do instead of just doing things I have to do in order to kinda do the things I want to do then I won’t get 50% of what I want to do done.

My wife is a fantastic business woman. She takes an idea, develops the idea, and starts producing product for sale. In a few months, tops, that idea is now a viable business process that works and earns her a living. These ideas also keep her busy and doing things she enjoys.

I’d like to take my ideas and do the same thing.

The funny thing is that I just showed my wife those last two “paragraphs” and she said it would be nice if I did any of my ideas. Like, for example, my bullet journal ideas (I said I’d like to make stickers for the BuJoRPG… primarily the templates for the first version and the templates for the second version, too). That is first on the list.

I deleted Facebook and Google+ from my phone recently and I’ve been less consumed with anger and frustration as a result. I’ve also had a ton more free time to do other things and I know that is a better thing.

I am also going to be removing one of my two regular games from my phone because I’ve progressed to a point where I don’t think I’ll be getting much farther any time soon. Without progress, I don’t really want to keep grinding because the game isn’t that important AND is getting in the way of doing what I want to do.

See, things are getting better already.

The Greatest Show 145: Totes a Porg

Our heroes, the galactic trio of Tricia, Metal Jesus, and the ever bald DJ, discuss some Star Wars: The Last Jedi, BuJourneyRPG, LitRPG, the Dark Matter Graphic Novel, the Verdacomb Graphic Novel, and more! We even gave away some free stuff!!!

The Specter Show 048: Somewhat Damaged

Short and to the point, DJ runs over a bit about BuJourneyRPG struggles, getting out a Greatest Show, comics both writing and reading, what’s been going on, and a hopeful push to get back to normal all on this episode!

Host: DJ Allen
Intro Music: The Idea of You by Nine Inch Nails (from Not the Actual Events)
Outtro Music: The Perfect Drug by Nine Inch Nails
Intro Lead in: Theo Rossi

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Journal of the Emerald Specter 80: Star Trek

I’ve been listening to a lot of Star Trek based podcasting recently and decided to try another “what would I do” thing.

My DCEU experiment wasn’t as popular as I had hoped, though I hope that it will gain some more views and interest in what I’d do (exactly) with a phase two or three or four.

This experiment? I traveled back in time and discover that there was no Star Trek… at all. Thankfully I have some Star Trek reference material with me and I’m going to bring the world Star Trek… the way it should have been done.

There is no Gene Roddenberry, which initially worries me, but the world must have their Star Trek. Things will be a bit different, though.

The year is 1958, and I heavily invest in the stock market… some well placed investments make me billions by 1961, independently wealthy and ready to make something fantastic.

I present the script for a feature film called Star Trek to be released in 1963. What’s the script? Well, a crew of exceptional people are needed to intercept a phenomenon headed towards the center of the United Federation of Planets: Earth.

If you think you’ve heard of that before, you have. I’m setting the original Star Trek: The Motion Picture in the very first slot… but I made some casting and character changes. This is long before the Kirk and Spock you’re familiar with, so I decided to add something from the history that we’re all familiar with.

The captain of the Enterprise is Robert April, with a few other little sprinkles of interesting around him. Captain Robert April is played by Gregory Peck, who was drawn to the project after the success of To Kill a Mockingbird in 1962, Star Trek being a progressive outlook on humanity’s future. Leonard Nimoy does appear as Spock, and in the role he plays in TMP… but he is a Vulcan who is trying to figure out his place in the universe (as a new Lieutenant in Starfleet). We see V-Ger, all out special effects, and the crew of the Enterprise seems to fly off happily after the film ends.

Part of the deal with this film, which does gangbusters at the box office, is to create a series after the film to further develop the universe. Gregory Peck wasn’t signed to do a series and I didn’t want to have him beyond the movie… because I signed the original crew of the Enterprise (starring Jeffrey Hunter with Leonard Nimoy as a Lieutenant Commander several years later) in the “pilot” called The Cage.

The pilot airs in late 1965, unlike in our reality, and just as expected, Jeffrey Hunter doesn’t want to do more… so we get to advance Spock once again to First Officer/Science Officer under William Shatner as Captain James Tiberius Kirk in early 1966 for the first season of the new series.

Since the network (NBC) isn’t paying for this series, they allow this to run for a guaranteed five years… we actually get our Five Year Mission.

Season One goes off as before, not including episodes Miri, Catspaw, or Shore Leave and the Menagerie is moved later in the season (to the season finale). Season Two also goes off as before, not including episodes The Ultimate Computer or Assignment: Earth. Season Three goes off as before, not including the episode Spock’s Brain.

This leaves us with a gap to fill, which I had planned for already… that is now Season Four, where the stories told in the Animated Series but are reworked to be more adult (less “cartoony”) in nature and be a solid 22 episode season. That leaves nothing for Season Five, though, right?

After working under my guidance for over five years, the writers would be tasked with original stories (I use the word original, only because I know the future here) for Season Five. This would also be a 22 episode season and would be oriented towards exposing the world to the first serialized version of Star Trek, with a few “mini-arcs” present without a “part 1, part 2” scenario.

Then, in spring of 1971, Star Trek leaves the air as a cult favorite. Fandom grows around the concepts and a clamoring for more is put out into the world. Hints of a movie are released in magazines and newspapers and work begins on Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan. As final touches were being added for the 1982 release, work on Star Trek III began behind the scenes in secret. Since I’m paying for the special effects, I spare no expense to ensure that the version I (we) remember doesn’t look decidedly less awesome than TWOK.

As Star Trek II was a hit, rumors about the ending were running amok and the revelation that there was another Star Trek movie deep in production was released to the population, drumming up hype early. Since the special effects were going to be far better than the original versions, I had high hopes for this installment.

In 1984, Star Trek III: The Search for Spock hit screens and received a positive series of reviews, not nearly the showing I had hoped but better than the one in the original timeline.

Did I already start work on the fourth installment of the series and the end to the “trilogy” of post-series Trek? Yep.

In 1986, Star Trek IV: The Voyage Home hit screens and was lauded as being the best Star Trek movie by non-fans. Fans still looked toward TWOK as the granddaddy of movies, but the reception allowed everyone to come and enjoy a wonderful movie. Behind the scenes, the next version of Star Trek was already being worked on.

Once again, since I’m paying for the whole thing, I sit down with some television executives to work up the next Star Trek for public consumption. The series would be shown on ABC this time, with Patrick Stewart in the lead role as Captain Jean-Luc Picard. I set up Star Trek: The Next Generation with the idea that I’m fixing what I know didn’t work in the original timeline. The show debuts in 1987 on ABC and becomes a hit.

Only side notes about this series. Uniform designs are from the original third season to completely avoid the spandex design. Special effects were spared no cost and the plan of seven seasons was followed through. The cast was informed when they came on board that they would be expected to do a few feature films after the show’s run, which they had no issues with. The final note is that Season Two’s introduction of Polaski as a replacement for Crusher was scrapped, instead adding Polaski as an additional character in the medical department. This altered the show’s timeline a bit as she became a part of the remainder of the show’s events rather than just up and disappearing.

While the Next Generation is on the air, 1991 sees the release of Star Trek V: The Undiscovered Country into theaters. Our original timeline makes this the sixth movie, but since that story had some issues, I opted to remove it from the timeline. This sees the retirement of the main cast of characters but also gives us Captain Hikaru Sulu, who was optioned for the sixth installment of the film series as the lead.

Before I go into that, though, Star Trek: Deep Space Nine premiers in 1993 with a new cast and runs at the same time as Next Generation. The series starts off with a positive outlook and runs as remembered in the original timeline. There was a rider in the contracts in this version, though, that required theatrical appearances of the cast (if not as a whole, then in other productions).

In 1993, George Takei and the on screen crew of the Excelsior (to include Tim Russ as an ensign science officer) in Star Trek VI: Lions of the Night, where the crew is forced to fend of a Kzinti invasion of Federation space. If you know about failed projects, then you’ve heard of the concept here (see Memory Alpha, scroll down for this project).

Since I’m the one developing this and paying for the whole thing, I’m saying that my attempt to bring a large solution to Star Trek’s movie future utilizing the original cast has hit it’s first bump. While the reception of critics was poor, fan reception wasn’t great (but fairly positive). My attempt to make a sequel with George was met with resistance from George himself, thus I moved on with the next idea…

As Star Trek: The Next Generation wrapped in 1994, plans for their first foray into movies was at hand. While filming the finale of the series, the crew was also filming their first movie: Star Trek: Generations. Unlike the original timeline version, less emphasis was put on Picard’s family, the “space ribbon” is a little more defined, and time inside the ribbon progresses to avoid the weird situations we saw inside it originally. Shatner does appear as Kirk but isn’t pulled out by Picard, rather feels the need to help on his own and joins Picard in saving the day (ending in his certain death).

More well received than Lions of the Night, Generations was given more leeway with production because of the previous installment. Little did the world know the next movie was under development!

On the TV side, Star Trek: Voyager was placed onto TV screens in 1995 and would run for seven seasons. There would be continuity ruining episodes removed from the series as a whole and as with DS9’s cast, the rider for feature films was in place to guarantee a Star Trek feature film future.

In 1996, Star Trek: First Contact was released and was definitely better received than Generations. In 1998, Star Trek: Insurrection was released with far better special effects and notes on how this is a “return to Star Trek’s message” roots. This movie, my version, was much better received than the original due to more action being added to the script and a deeper mystery element to draw in the audience. Was it considered the greatest movie? No, but it was more popular.

As Deep Space Nine was wrapping in 1999, the cast didn’t want to do a “DS9” movie series. The “appears in other films” contingent was enacted and some plans were made for the next two movies. Yes, TWO movies. Voyager wrapped in 2001.

Directly on the heels of the ending of Voyager came the new series Star Trek: Enterprise, featuring Scott Bakula of Quantum Leap fame leading a new crew of an experimental Enterprise on missions exploring the galaxy. The Xindi storyline would be introduced much earlier than the  original timeline and the series would run for six seasons, since I am paying for the whole thing. There would be riders for movies as well, as would be the standard since DS9. The show would end in 2007 with the formation of the Federation.

In 2002, Star Trek: Nemesis hit the screens and before you roll your eyes at me… this one was much different. Shinzon, a Reman warlord and scavenger, returns to Romulus with a new ally: a rebuilt Lore. Lore aids Shinzon in taking down the Roman government, a hostile takeover, and then takes a fleet to Federation space for the first salvo in a planned war. The Enterprise-E is forced to fend off the attacks by leading a counter-attack (joined by the Defiant with Colonel Kira, Lieutenant Ezri Dax, Chief O’Brien, Dr. Bashir, Lieutenant Nog, and the commanding officer Captain Worf). When hope looks lost, Data sacrifices himself to blow up the lead ship with Lore on it, leaving an unprepared Shinzon to die and the rest of the hijacked ships to retreat. The Federation and the Roman Empire begin peace talks in the wake of the “old guard” being wiped out.

In 2004, an extragalactic threat would arrive to test the Federation. In Star Trek: Revelations, the Enterprise-E is commanded by Admiral Picard, who leads the fleet to take on what they discover to be machines… the machines, in fact, that created V-Ger. Enterprise is joined by Defiant (Worf commanded as before), Voyager (commanded by Chakotay and filled with the rest of the Voyager crew), and Titan (Riker’s new command). A fundamental “man vs machine” theme would run through this one and man would win… at a high cost. Defiant wouldn’t make it out of the conflict, Voyager would be severely damaged and several crew members would have died, as well as Enterprise suffering greatly in the results. Deaths of characters would include Kira, O’Brien, Nog, Paris, Chakotay, and Neelix. Picard and Admiral Janeway would have Riker seek out any remnants of the invasion, gaining the crew of Dax, Harry Kim, Seven of Nine, and a newly promoted Captain LaForge.

This movie, while not hated, wasn’t the blockbuster I was hoping for. Critics gave it generally favorable reviews but fans panned it stating “too many characters died” in the melee. Taking that under consideration, I put into production one more movie before my time in this timeline ends (due to being very old and in poor health by this point). I also opted to delay the release of this movie by an extra two years to ensure the highest quality.

In the summer of 2008, Star Trek Beyond hit the screens to thunderous applause. Unlike the original timeline version, which was part of the reboot franchise, my Beyond was a continuation of the timeline I’d already started. Audiences were stunned when the Enterprise NX made it’s way towards the planet Kismet, where they are forced to battle a fleet of ships that act in coordination with each other. The ship crashes on the surface of the planet as most of the escape pods are sent safely away. Those who did not make it were T’Pol, Trip, and Reed who learn that there is a species of cyborgs mutating the inhabitants for an impending invasion. Fast forward to the 24th Century, Captain Riker in command of the Titan comes upon Kismet while investigating and discovers that there is a large station in orbit of Kismet sending signals out of the galaxy. Some spy work from the crew and a battle cripples the Titan, forcing it to crash onto Kismet’s surface. They manage to disable the cyborg and mutant populations, as well as send a signal that this galaxy cannot be conquered to prevent another invasion. We discover that this was the “advanced party” for the machine invasion and mutants were being used as slave labor.  The film ends with a goodbye to all the franchises we adored along the way and the reigns of Star Trek were turned over to Paramount for future plans.

That’s a hell of a ride. I’d love to hear some feedback on my non-original timeline versions of movies and I’ll be back again in the near future.

Journal of the Emerald Specter 79: 13 Reasons Why… I Reflect on My Own Past

There have been multiple times I have wanted to write about the Netflix show 13 Reasons Why but I wasn’t done watching the show then. As I write these words, I’m watching the last episode and I’m far enough through the show where I can comment on the aspects of the show that I am going to end up commenting on.

So, there will definitely be spoilers in my column, so if you don’t want to be spoiled in any way, shape, or form then you shouldn’t read further. The point isn’t to talk endlessly about JUST the show, the show sort of sparked a thought in me to write about my experience growing up. This may also involve some current events, but I’m not promising anything.

If you have been under a rock, there is a Netflix show called 13 Reasons Why, which is about a teenage girl who committed suicide and left a series of tapes to the 13 people who basically caused her to go through with the act.

There is a central theme of the suicide, and while I’ve had my own personal tragedy in this area, that isn’t what I want to talk about. My primary concern here is really not going to talk about the suicide at all, but to talk about what the culture of the school is like and how that relates to what I experienced.

I may talk about more of the show, too, but that is why I’m putting words out there into the world. This goes under “Storytelling” because I used the show to launch into this and this is a story about my experience.

When people on TV talk about a “small town,” they’re talking about something in excess of 50,000 residents. I am from a small town, the population was roughly 3,100 residents. SMALL. If you did something, the “trope” of everyone finding out about it actually happens in a small town. A TRUE small town.

I graduated from high school before 1995, and that’s about as specific as I’m going to get in an open forum like this. My high school, which I’ll just call “Smalltown High School,” or SHS… there were 63 people who graduated in my class. There would have been more but some didn’t make the grade and ended up getting alternate diplomas after the fact.

When watching 13 Reasons Why, I see a class of kids interacting with each other in a large groups (whether or not they were really close or not) and I look at what I experienced. In the show, there were the tight-nit jocks hob knobbing with the cheerleaders and both groups would  routinely mistreat the nerds (or the “nerd-like”). Everyone generally treats everyone somewhat respectfully in the flashbacks, though things tend to be a little less so after the tapes start getting circulated.

How is this relevant to me?

When I was in high school, there were better than 75% of the class that I’d been in kindergarten with, so we basically grew up together. After we got into high school, we segregated into the social groups that existed with the rest the high school. At the time, those groups were jocks, preps, nerds, and “loads.”

The jocks were, predictably, the ones who participated in multiple sports throughout their high school years. Some were track, basketball, cross country, football, hockey… there may have been a few other sports back then that I can’t really recall, but they were primarily involved in the sporting events (often as many as they could be a part of).

The preps were the socially active members of the school, participating in all kinds of clubs, cheerleading, and they almost exclusively held the top slots in the “grade point average” race to be valedictorian. While not exclusively, this group was largely populated by the girls of the class… they were the ones who spent the most time concentrating on their studies and social interactions. I wasn’t ever part of this group so I only have an “outside looking in” perspective on them.

The nerds were the socially awkward group, very often only interacting within their own group and often being left out of the clubs and sports. Nerds were picked on relentlessly, depending on who they were and how much they would resist. Interests here revolved around things that have nothing to do with school and being at school very rarely played any part other than being a distraction.

Lastly, there were the loads. This was originally a derogatory term for the rebellious kids who participated in partying with drugs and openly with alcohol. I say “openly” because the jocks drank almost as much as the loads but their offenses were often looked past, looked over, and generally considered “too good to touch” when it comes to partying. Jocks and loads rarely, if ever, commingled. Jocks couldn’t afford the “bad press.”

I was part of three of these groups. The first two years of school, I fit tangentially into the jocks because of my participation in cross country. I say tangentially because I would really have called myself a nerd for the totality of my freshman year. That changed my sophomore year when I became a load, full force.

Let me step back a minute.

Everyone in my graduating class, for the most part, got along until we reached high school. Things really took a turn when we were full fledged high schoolers. Many of them got worse as the years went on.

On 13 Reasons Why, the class was far more intertwined than my own experience. I am not without a point of reference for the camaraderie the show displayed. The grade just below mine  were almost completely united in their caring about being friendly with each other. Watching them, honestly, made me a little ill… the show would be what they were dialed down and a bit closer to my own experience.

The group of people that I was hanging out with in the first year of high school with the nerds because I hadn’t really managed to be interested in many other things. One thing I was, though, was lazy and nerdy… so I wanted to get out of taking PhyEd and there were four classes one could take as well as two years of a sport. So, here I come cross country!

Did I suck? Yep, but I did my two years (and the four classes, by the way) to avoid PhyEd as I wanted. But during that whole time, I was picked on… though I’ll say that I was picked on by the worst possible people to be picked on by, so at least I was choosing the best… worst?

In the show, Tyler receives LESS torture than I had for the first year of high school. Then, something wonderful happened. A random person in algebra asked me what I was doing one Friday night. I’ll call him Smith, because it’s a generic last name and because it was his last name. That Friday night had me hanging out with the loads and I loved it.

And the bullies left me alone. Completely.

Did I do drugs? No. I did enjoy the hell out of some alcohol, though, and invented Dr. Peppermint (between one to two ounces of peppermint schnapps per 20 ounces of Dr. Pepper… and before you say “that sounds gross,” try it. I’ve introduced no less than 100 lifelong Dr. Peppermint lovers to my wonderful concoction who swear by it… and I discovered it by accident).

In the show, the class seems to be broken down into only two real groups: the jocks and the not-jocks. Granted, we don’t get to see a large cross section of the class, as I am sure there are more than 63 students in that class. We get to see the jocks (Bryce, Justin, Zach, Montgomery, Jeff, Marcus) interacting with some cheerleaders (Jessica, Sheri), some outcast types (Skye, Tyler,  Ryan), and a few people who fit into other categories of “not-jocks” (Sheri, Courtney, Alex), most of which end up working with each other in some form or fashion to keep the tapes a secret.

There wasn’t much diversity portrayed on the show. Real life was more broken down than that, as I explained.

What I wanted to cover, I have. I didn’t have an experience in high school that was portrayed in the show. I don’t have friends from high school I still talk to (the last one turning out to be a social justice extremist who doesn’t listen to reason)… the ones that I still talk to, mainly those of the “load” social group I belonged to, all have their own things going on and we are cordial.

The closest experience I have to relate to what I witnessed in the show was the Navy. Even though I fundamentally disagree with some of the views of my brothers and sisters in the Navy, I would still rather hang out with and talk to them than some of those people I was in high school with.

This was a longer post and didn’t really fully explore what I had on my mind. Honestly, I could write a book on what I had on my mind and unfortunately I know that I won’t really get that done, either.

Hopefully someone gets something out of this, though.