Emerald Specter 102: Taking Control Back

Life is a mess of crap I’m trying to wade through in order to get to the stuff that I actually want to do. If I could just get winning a couple of million dollars out of the way, I could do all the things that I’d really like to do.

When I discovered bullet journalling, both through a friend and because I stumbled upon it, I started getting better at life in general. My wife would agree with my assessment that I went from being a scatter brained pseudo-help to actually helpful. While I have retained some of that helpfulness, I’ve also did quite a backslide as far as personal progress.

My weight has also launched itself upward and that does not make me a happy camper. When my wife and I changed our eating lifestyle, we both lost weight and were much happier with how things were going. We’ve slowly been introducing back some of the crap we used to eat (i.e. sweets up the wazoo) and as I just weighed myself before writing these exact words, I’m up to almost 300 pounds again.

That is highly depressing.

All the projects for this website and related thereto have been sidelined as per the last column. Well, not all of them, but you get the picture that I’ve swept a good many things aside to make room for changes.

That’s where the title of this section “philosophy” comes in. I’ve adopted all the bad habits right back and I’m not pleased with how things are skewing in life. I need to make changes, again.

First and foremost, I need to get back to eating healthy. Cereals for breakfast need to be replaced by our new “omelet in a jar” concept that we recently came up with… having stolen the idea from OreIda.

We’ve loved the ones we made before as our “test” and haven’t made them again since my bag of dehydrated marshmallows arrived… which, yes, is not a healthy choice, especially paired with the bag of frosted flakes that I got from he grocery store. Delicious? Yes. Healthy? No.

Along with that, eating out needs to return to the level we were at when we were still in North Dakota. That means we go back to “once in a while” rather than deciding whether or not to go out on a nearly daily basis. While Portland has a massively wonderful bounty of food options, making things at home is still the best option. (Although, we could do just as well if we weren’t eating American foods and instead sticking with Indian, Vietnamese, actual Mexican, and other ethnically available choices here.)

My route at work has changed from a walking route to a driving route, also. I have a hip issue that prevents me from really doing a ton of walking now and I needed to get off my 15 miles a day walking route. I’m really happy with my new route but I also am not getting the extensive exercise I was before, so I really need to start working out.

Before the switch, I was discussing going to the gym with some of my co-workers… who are all now at my old office and not the new one. They gym in question also went from being “on the way to work” to “completely in the wrong direction.” I have SelecTech weights but I know that I need to start out differently and work within my new capabilities… so that means I’m going to start with bodyweight exercising and move up from there. The weights themselves will get reintroduced but I don’t want to have them sitting in the house (as opposed to the storage unit) while I’m not actively using them.

What I feel bad about was that I was really working in the right direction with exercise… and I’ve not only fallen off the wagon, but the wagon drove away while I was standing in the road watching.

Motivation is the key to success in this aspect. I was following all kinds of bodybuilders on Facebook, watching the Mr. Olympia actively annually, and  I was seeking out tips for doing healthy things whenever I could. My Facebook feed has completely degenerated into political posts and memes, I missed the Mr. Olympia this year for the first time in almost five years, and I haven’t sought out healthy information in more than three years… 

I need to get back on BodySpace.

Seriously, I look like the before picture of the before picture of the guy who ends up looking like Hulk Hogan. I’m closer to “round” than any other shape.

There then comes the point of writing, something I’ve tried to do all my life and have failed at doing all but when I was attending college. I used to write all the time, I wrote all kinds of stuff in high school, and none of that exists anymore (destroyed in disasters). I’ve participated in NaNoWriMo and have even won twice, as I’ve mentioned before, but I need to climb back on the horse and actually accomplish something.

Because if I’m sure of one thing, if I can’t be rich at least I can enjoy creating. 

All of that leads to one thing to help me out in day to day life: bullet journalling. I need to get back to journalling and I should probably do that sooner rather than later.

I’ve been creating myself a digital journal and I’ve been fighting my old habits to keep making progress on finishing it before the end of the year. I honestly need the damn thing right now but as long as I’m still advancing forward, I’m happy. Currently, the journal needs the links created and then I can start putting the basic pages together to start using the journal.

My bad habits keep creeping up on me, though.

I used to create spreadsheets for all kinds of things for no reason. I’ve made elaborate schedules for work, elaborate fantasy football trackers for fun, and I’ve even just dinked around trying out formulas to see what else I could do… that has also led me to using the spreadsheets to track fictional things like the ESPL, the unseen ESFC (Emerald Specter Fighting Championships), the ESFL (Emerald Specter Football League), the ESBA (Emerald Specter Basketball Association), and the list goes on… some of the things I’ve done dinking around with those spreadsheets have led to some of the things that I’ve put out on this website.

Habits keep dragging me back towards dinking around in place of actually accomplishing things, like finishing my digital journal. I’ve spoken aloud several times over the course of the last couple of months to finish something rather than dink around. It’s been an uphill battle.

I’m on the tail end of my week off and I wanted to finish the week by finishing the digital journal. I have a few more days to do this and if I write this down and put the column out I have dedicated myself to getting it done. If the thing is done, I can start actively using it and then I can start getting other things done, too.

My wife has been enlisted to help me with BuJourneyRPG. I’ve got a different approach to how I was initially going to complete the system and she’ll help me make things less “combat heavy” and more “goal oriented task” friendly. Working on this still needs the digital journal and that leads me back to getting it done.

See? I’m already making some progress.

Organizing myself will help things get done. Is there room for dinking around in Excel? Yeah, but not right now. I need to buckle down and start accomplishing things because I don’t want to be a 70 year old who has a bunch of unfinished projects laying about.